Well, Year 2006 surely starts off very fast for me.. I'm not sure how to put it.. Today I receive a revelation... OR rather.. I experienced my revelation today.....


For a long time, I haven't been helping out much in my cell group. Well, in a way it's lethargy... but also.. I really don't know where and how to start helping out... At the beginning of the year, one of my goals for this year to be help out more in the cell group. Well, I very much would want to be a cell group leader next year... I'm not sure if it's really possible for each leader are tested and moulded to be one.. thru a process of time. But it's my goal to be a Cell group leader. I thank God for a chance this week to start with... by organising my cell group steamboat gathering. That really spurred me on.. It's a chance to serve again, and I'm grabbing it. There are 4 overall in- charge to this gathering... which includes me. Well, I sense that within the 4 of us, my other 3 partners doesn't have the time to chair the meetings and facilitate the compiling of information gathered.. So I stepped up to make sure it's done. All this that I have done brought me out of my lethargy and suddenly gave me a clearer mind... ( Really it's as if I haven't use my mind for a long time... =P)

Today, it's a service day... My church holds our weekly service on Wednesday this week due to the weekend being the eve of Chinese New Year and Chinese New Year Day.... Because majority of my cell group members are students, again I step up and went ahead to queue up to book seats. The main door opens at 7pm and everyone rushed in as usually... and as usual.. I can't find a good row for my cg to sit... For a moment.. I feel very despair.. =P But I kept praying and kept on looking for a good row.. I went to the choir side( where my cell group usually sits) and found a row.. Still it was sort of 'book' by another cell group, but I went over and talked with them, Thank God, they are willing to give up that row for they have booked 3 rows already~! =P (Still in the end they gave up quite a bit of seats as well from their other rows.) So alone I was.... I guarded those seats while awaiting for my members to come.. Thank God, all of us got a seat when service starts.

During Worship, I... suddenly turned back and saw my friend's member talking to the usher.. Yes, her cell group were seating at the row behind me and she wanted to seat with them because she was told that they reserved a seat for her... I saw that the Usher was about to bring her away.. so I stepped in, offering that she sqeeze with my cell group. She agreed, the usher agreed, and so she was able to seat near her cell group. We continued to worship and when worship was over, we shared seats together.. Another usher saw what happened, came over to me and ask me if I want to seat in front... 2 rows from the stage, right in front of the stage.... =P Well of course, I wanted that. =P and I went over to take up my seat. That seat.... =P Well... physically it's the same seat as those at the back... but it feel different.. spiritually I feel.. more engaged to the service... It feels really like as if I entered the Holiest of Holies and I'm waiting upon God's word and revelation to come. I could sense the hearts of men and women in that arena... being so soft and so ready to accept the word.. Their ears capture all that was said by pastor, and their eyes all so focused at the Man of God. Wow... That seat is a privilege seat. That seat give me a glimpse of the Holiest of Holies and a taste of the glory upon those seated there. Hm... to think about it... During offering, I din't see that usher around again... really wonder where was he seating thru-out the service.. He wore a suit.. so he should be holding seats in front to facilitate the offering collection. But I din't notice him anyway... if I did, maybe I would thank him for something... but I din't see him. Which make me wonder where could he be seating... Or maybe he's an angel... =P just there to reserve the seat for me.. and he left after his mission is done.. =P Well even if he's not an angel, it must be God's plan for me to seat there and experience Him in the holiest of holies myself.. hm... quite possible... But that seat spurred me on further to be a leader for christ.. to shepherd His sheeps and teach them to hear His voice.. Indeed God is good. Seating on the 2nd row is truly a privilege. I will make it there permanently.. =P question is how long will I take.. =P Well God.... into Your hands I commit to You again. Help me and guide me along to reach me destiny by Your appointed moment.. Lord, I trust You.

Reminds me of the old saying.... 'every angel has other angels around him'. God is good.

Man... so much to blog.. =P So little time to blog.. =P time is money.. =P

Last week, my computer got hit by a virus breakout... man.. it totally locked up my computer.. I have to send it for repair.. and even so, I have to resort to reformatting my computer.. sigh.. When I'm at Sim Lim Sq, I explored this new game call F.E.A.R. Wow. it's a gruesome, awesome game... =P Yea, I waited so long for the repair of my computer that I came so close to completing the whole game.. at the game shop ( not LAN shop mind u. =P) I believe the sales assistants was eyeing on me.. =P In Awe at the amt of time I have spent on their PC... Yet had no intention of purchasing their products... =P Well, that's pretty much all I can do there... Din't bring any other things there other than my heavy computer. On the 3rd day tha I went back to sim lim sq.. I noticed they changed the on the pc to quake... =P

Last week, I was praying and seeking God for a financial breakthru.. I was asking Him why it haven't come. (frankly last week I was hoping to win a SONY ERICSSON Phone.. W900i from a contest, hoping to sell it and get the $.. =P that's how desperately in need of cash I was. ) When I saw chances of 'easy money' din't come my way, I was a little disappointed. So I ask Him why..Really, like King David desperate words to God to deliver him out of the hands and mockeries of his enemies, I was as desperate as that when I did my own prayers. And it's strange.. I sense that Holy Spirit kept prompting me to finish up what I started.. There's 2 things that came to my mind...

1) Go back to camp and collect my pink I/C( I served my term and the pink ic is the recognition in exchange for it)
2) finish reading my bible(I remember the times I spent reading my bible.. book by book each night until 4-5am in the morning when I was in camp.. But when I'm out of camp, I neglected my reading and now I'm left with 500 over pages to go before I can declare tha I finished reading it.)

So last Saturday, 140106, I made a declaration to God that I will complete my bible reading this week.. It's really by faith.. and I did accompanied it with my actions.. I had my actvely reading my bible everywher i go since Saturday. Also, on Sunday I made up my mind that I will journey back to Jurong camp to collect my Pink IC.on monday.

And so I did. Monday late morning I took a cab back to Jurong(I planned to reach back camp at 10 actually but I overslept. Still God is good.) In the midst of the journey, was reading my bible when I received a call from a guy, and he informed me that I'm selected to go for an interview. It's a job to teach primary school kids IT applications. A week ago I sent in my resume via email to them and I had been praying to clinch that job throughout the week.. I dreamt of myself having fun interaction with the pri school kids in my lessons and I saw them really keen to explore into what I can teach them. But really though still praying, the faith I have that I will get the chance decreases each day while waiting for the news. Well because only selected candidates will be notify. So when he called, I was over the top. Praise the Lord!

The norm of all NSF to finish the procedures ( the FFI and the clearance) b4 they receive the pink IC is that they need 1 full day to do their medical and dental FFI, and another day to complete the clearance form. But I intended to get my pink IC on monday itself no mater what and it came to pass. It's not a smooth process thru all that I need to do b4 I can get it though. I spent 6 hours on waiting and travelling between just 3 locations b4 I got everything settle and got back to camp.. Praise the Lord for favour of man, that I still managed to get my pink ic by the end of monday.

This blog entry is a testimony of how God reviews to me Himself as someone I can really depend on, and even though the floodwaters are up to my neck, God will still be in time to provide for me. When I seek Him first, His kingdom and righteousness, indeed all good things will be added upon me. This 2 weeks msgs from service, and bible studies had blessed and impacted me tremendously. My faith is renewed and I feel my faith. Dreams are resurrected and created, and being 'burdened' into my soul like babies in a mother's womb. It's time to rise up.

Yes~! this is my first post of the year 2006! Man... Are u guys excited??? a brand new year~! A brand new beginning, a chance to a new shot at life, and most importantly, an end to a year of ups and downs. Man, thank God he divided days into months and months by years. Indeed, life out of army feels great. No more red tapes, regimental laws, duties and sabotages.. =) Man... air is fresher when I'm miles away from that miserable place.. Just one problem... =P I haven't got a job.. Meaning to say.. I'm quite broke.. =
Well.. on the bright side, I believe I had spent my time productively, on grounds that I'm closed to setting a business class webbie.. =P and on grounds that my band did our first recording of the year already.. Really, this year looks brighter already. When dreams and visions starts to pour on you, you can't help but to be in awe and thankful. That's how I feel now. I'm finally picking up from a bad past, almost back to my best.. =) Almost.

Do pray for me though.. Well, I don't mind being broke for now.. but I do need finances to pay my building fund.. =\ and I'm still short by quite a bit... I believe I need miracles. lots of it.. Still matt 6:33 keeps on ringing in my mind and I kept proclaiming it. I know God will provide.

Alrighty~! Time to sign off. =) By the way, Have a great chinese new year~!! If you don't mind, you can contribute your hongbao to the addy_orion fund... =P do contact me via comments and I'll gladly pass you my a/c no.. =P


God bless you~!

Love,
Ad